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Borrowing Rage

Since I met with the consultant last fall, I’ve made a conscious effort to be a bit more pleasant, a little more positive, a little more upbeat.  Perhaps it was necessary and a good thing (one of the staff told me the other day that he described me to his wife as the “Dr. House” of the residential center.)  There has been, however, an unintended consequence of this effort to be more positive:  I don’t write as much, as often, or as well as when I’m a bit angry.

Now, maybe that’s all in my head, like the writer who thinks he can’t write unless he’s drinking, but a little bit of an edge seems to make a big difference.  It helps me focus.  This has been a growing concern, of late, as I have a lot of writing to do, and a significant portion of it is for work, so lack of focus actually has consequences (as opposed to writing for Ratlands, where lack of focus only means incoherent drivel and days without posts.)  The problem is that when you make a concerted effort not to be pissed off at the whole world, it’s kind of hard to turn on some anger when you need to write a policy or have a few thoughts you want to work into an essay.

My solution, is Trent Reznor.  I’ve been listening to NIN’s With Teeth pretty much non-stop for the last week.  It seems to be working, at least for now.  I suppose there’s a ton of Industrial Rock out there which would serve the same purpose, but I don’t really care for the ubiquitous screaming.  The cool part of borrowing some rage in this way is that when I’m done writing, I can always listen to some Zero 7 or something.

{ 4 } Comments

  1. LarryNo Gravatar | June 6, 2010 at 4:28 pm | Permalink

    Hey..funny me..(in the immortal musical words of one, Billy Joel)…”I like you just way you are”
    Seems as though I look at the world through the same glasses as you… my case i am getting long enough in the tooth that I am probably considered a cranky old angry white guy……so be it I guess.
    Atleast i am not throwing water filled objects at anyone yet…..(sorry).
    Concerning latley I have been turned
    on to Nickelback (from a fellow staff member)..especially the song “Follow You Home”…awesome song..imho. I had been stuck on old country music, like my parents listened to while I was growing up. So if you see and hear some 43 year old “kid” driving around Wichita with this stuff cranked up…it’s just me.

  2. Rat Jr.No Gravatar | June 7, 2010 at 2:40 am | Permalink

    Hmm… My problem with writing is that I can’t clear my head out enough and get settled down enough to actually work on something… that and I am starting to get really nit picky.

    So, with that said, how about a link dump of my own for your viewing pleasure. It will all be random Japanese toys. How I got on this particular internet search is due to Cousin C. She sent me a site for Jdramas which also show Drama and movies from China, Taiwan, Hong Kong, and Korea as well as anime. Anyway, I decided to watch a comedy called Hard Gay. You would just have to see an ep and no, no one does anything in it. So I went looking for the toy the guy managed to get a big toy company in Japan to make and decided I would look at other Japanese toys. So, this is how you are getting links.

    This one has some historical info to it.

  3. cziltangNo Gravatar | June 7, 2010 at 9:37 pm | Permalink

    Well Larry, all I can say is that I had forgotten how much I used to enjoy driving around with the windows down and the tunes cranked up on a summer night. I’ve done a bit of it lately, though, at volumes unseemly for someone of my advanced age. It is, however, necessary, as I’m on a mission. One of the items on my “bucket list” is to get a ticket for being a public nuisance or whatever it is they write for having your stereo too loud. Unfortunately, I think I need an amp and better speakers (and probably a sub-woofer) to accomplish that goal.

  4. LarryNo Gravatar | June 8, 2010 at 6:58 pm | Permalink

    If this habit continues…I may be “needing” to crank it up for an extended period (atleast until I am too old and senile to drive) my hearing is not what it use to be…ahh.. as a consequence of cranking it up back in the 80’s often. Can you picture this?..It’s 2041…a senior citizen (about 75 years of age or so)..driving around town at the break neck speed of 20mph with some good ole Nickelback cranked up??!! Classic!
    And I know it’s coming as my 81 year old mother’s tv can nearly be heard out on the street in front of her home 🙂

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